Moving Forward

Moving Forward

Sometimes we feel like giving up. I know, I've been there. The last quarter of last year was one of the hardest for me and my family. My brother and I both lost our father and our father-in-laws. That's a tough thing to have to go through. But, we both have put on our adult underwear and have kept on going. It's not easy. We do still hurt. We just don't show it as much as some others.

My mother-in-law lost her life long partner. They met when she was 11 and he was 16. Their families used to go out to Oregon together in the summers to harvest crops. Then they would come back to Oklahoma and the kids would go to school. Each of them were one of twelve children. I can only imagine how hard this has been for her. He was an amazingly wonderful man. He was 71 when he passed, just 19 days before his 72nd birthday. He got to meet his grandchildren and even had 2 step-great-grandchildren. He was always sharing his knowledge with anyone willing to listen. He was a very smart man and very quiet. My husband has accused me of being his Dad in our marriage. I've accused him of being his Mother in our marriage.

My father was born with a bad heart. The hole that closes as soon as you are born didn't close for him. The newspapers used to call him "The Blue Baby" because he would turn blue and pass out sometimes. He had several open heart surgeries growing up. His last one was when he was 19. The procedure was experimental at the time. They gave him 10 years life expectancy. He was 73 when he passed. He never expected to have 3 kids, 2 grandchildren, and 2 great grandchildren that he would get to see. And, he even added to that with 2 step-children and 4 step-grandchildren.

I learned from my father that each day is a gift. Every day that he woke up was a day that he wasn't promised and he lived it like it was his last because it could have been. I learned from him that we can't change the past. We can only move forward and learn from it.

It hurts to go on without these two wonderful men as a part of my life. But I know that neither one of them would want me to stop living, stop learning, stop helping, or stop teaching what I have learned.

2019 hasn't started out the way that I had hoped but that doesn't mean that the entire year is a bust. It just means a couple of days have been crappy so far. So don't let a bad day convince you that it's your destiny to have a horrible rest of your life. It's just one day. If you're blessed enough to wake up tomorrow it's a new gift and you can do whatever you want with it.

I want to make this year my year of "Gifts" if you will. Each day is a gift. Even if I don't feel like going on I'm going to put on my big girl panties and face the day. After all, it could turn out to be my best day yet. I won't know until I go on. I know that not every single day will be a good day. But I choose to believe that I'm going to have more good days than bad days. You should too.

So, hang in there. It's bound to get better eventually. Take it one day at a time and if you have to, one minute at a time. Some days I can go all day without crying, others... I cry off and on throughout the day. And it's okay to have those sad moments. Just don't make your home there. Feel them but realize that it's okay to have the happy moments too. It doesn't make you a bad person to be happy. It makes you a better person.

I truly hope that you have more good days than bad days.

Until next time....

Keep Chasing The Dream!

Rebecca

Happy New Year 2019!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Well, it's a new year and time to plan for the future. I don't normally make resolutions because it seems that most of us tend to break them after a short period of time. I think that's why most of us never set goals either, because we're afraid of not meeting them and then being disappointed.

I think that this year is my year of change. So, I'm going to make some resolutions.

  1. Write in my blog every single day. Even if it's just to say "Hi!"
  2. Work on my Gold Canyon Candles business every day.
  3. Work on my website every day.
  4. Start putting myself first more and not feel guilty about it.
  5. Continue to strive to help others but not at the cost of my own sanity anymore.
  6. Realize that I'm only one person and I can't please everyone all the time. Some people are just going to be unhappy with me.

I think that these are all a solid start to getting my year to be better than years before. 2018 wasn't too bad for the 1st 3 quarters, it was the last quarter that sucked. Mostly due to illness and loss. I suffered the loss of my father and then 3 days later the loss of my father-in-law. They were both great men with many words of wisdom. Their voices will forever ring in my mind with the sound advice that they had to offer.

I do hope that you will continue to visit my site and read my blog. I do hope to have more content added as I go.

I am working on crocheting more as well. Maybe I should have added that to my resolutions. Nah, that's one of the ways I relax when I'm really stressed out. I do hope to work on something every day. I found a link for 365 Granny Squares. I think I need to attempt that. It's easy enough to complete one each day. They're small and that will be instant gratification of a completed job.

So, it's my wish for you that this year brings you much joy and success. I hope that it's the best year yet for you. 2019 is a new chapter in each of our lives and I truly hope that we write an amazing story this year.

Keep Chasing The Dream!

Rebecca

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